So sit back and chill as we enjoy this no judgement zone! In my head I believe that we are all beautiful, strong, wonderful, amazing, top notch unicorns who are not brought down by anything. Of course we are all these things, but there are things that hold on to our shins and do not let go easily. These are our insecurities. This might get a bit PG, but it’s just me being honest and enjoying the judgement free zone.
- Eye see brows
My eyebrows to be honest are weird. It’s not really the shape or size but more like the quantity. And it’s not like they are thin or thick uniformly, they just decide to be free with their own choices. What this means is that, it looks like I have patches on my eyebrows. And I know you might be thinking,”Jacky why don’t you just fill them in” Yes I have tried that but every time I do it either looks like I was shading different countries in my diagram of the world map or I have 2 eyebrows in one.
Please pervs, I am not insinuating anything. I’m just a girl talking about things she is extremely cautious and aware of. So I may be hourglass (open for correction), and with that comes the fact that no matter what you where, everyone can tell what your shape is. I may try to hide it but all that will happen is being told is to stop wearing baggy clothes. They are not my size. So then I listen to a Beyonce song and I’m, Yes!!! Let’s do this. A dress is brought and the process starts to smooth it over my hips. And then I look at myself and booom!!!!
There they are. Then I start chanting, “Jacky accept yourself as you are”…………………….. Of course you know what I do next. I look for a long cover up and package that into a box like shape so that no one sees!!!
- Arm joint
That may sound like around my elbows but it’s not. It’s my armpits. I’m talking about my armpits. What else can I say guys, they are armpits that are slightly a shade darker and that grow hair every 2 days. What more is there?
Hahahaha……this explains the situation perfectly. Like bullets! So what I’m referring to is nipples. Pervs go get some water, it might help. My feet could be cold and boom bullets! A soft breeze and boom bullets! I might be changing and boom bullets! In the swimming pool, bullets! Bullets! Bullets! They just don’t take a day off. Then there I am trying to cover up and even folding my arms over my chest. Then the insecurity commotion starts in my head.
“Did anyone see me? Does anyone know what I’m doing right now? That guy just looked at me funny. Does he know? I should have noticed earlier.” You see what I mean. I’m sure someone is nodding their head saying,”Amen sister!”
- Voice Codes
I am sometimes an introvert. This is not in any way because I have nothing to say…..hehe. My voice really is something. I got teased about it when I was younger and even now. I used to take it to heart but as I grow older it doesn’t bother me. And by it, I mean the comments.
Not the voice. I can read just fine. It’s clear and quick and audible. But when it comes to talking, it’s like there’s a slow motion button on my voice box, then the pitch is raised. So I sound like a child, asking for sweets. I could prank call you and you would know 100% that it was me. There has been times when my Dad confused me with my brother who is 11 years younger than me. Yup.
I may have all these insecurities and it may seem like my self esteem is dangling by a thread, but I assure you that I am well aware of the things that make me uncomfortable and I’m okay with that. They are my oreo spots and I love each one of them! What other things are you hyper aware of? Trust me no one will judge you because you are awesome sauce itself!!!!
Thanks for reading and have a good one.